Musician's Heart

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Music is the Universal Language...

And I could talk all night. It's a good thing I have music as an outlet to talking; otherwise I wouldn't get anything done! I have to be in my own space, working at my own timing, night or day. My goal is to mutate and orchestrate places and minds with sound. Even when I'm silent, there's a rhythm playing in my pulse. Actually, it's hard to be still. Some of the best compositions come to me when I'm asleep. I swear, it's the Angels talking! The music comes to me, not from inside me. It's a matter of forcing myself to be a better listener. My nervous system is sensitive. I sometimes use caffeine and nicotine to reach various levels of musical consciousness. I've also been known to be a speed freak, a weed fiend and have used LSD to find ways to pull sound out of my environment... I channel it into something cohesive. I can play several instruments, read and write music. If I can't make a living on it? I'll teach it.

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Smoker's Heart

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This is actually one of the original, older images of the Sacred Heart of Christ. As you can see, the painting style was done with old-fashioned paints, no longer in use; you will find this style in images of the Lord done prior to the 1960's. Please note, the crucifix ascending out of the top of of the heart. This is an interesting addition.


Just yesterday I listened to a blurb on television... That the addictive part of smoking is the nicotine, and not the actual smoking. (I will touch on other substances in later posts.) The real danger that occurs to the heart is inducing it with smoke. The crucifix could be symbolic of self-medication, through nicotine; however smoking is an equal and opposing action which breaks down the integrity of the heart.

With it will come such things as congestion, bacterial infections, and yes, cancer. So the TV discussion advised people to purchase things like nicotine pads and gum to help get their nicotine.

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This week I went to see my Tui Na healer... I have been living with paralysis on the left side of my face and head for at least 3 years that I'm aware of. (It doesn't just happen over night.) Loi is getting the last remnants of paralysis out of me. This week she went into my body through the back of my neck (again), working intensively to move the chi out of the set of muscles that allow us to move our heads up and down. She got my jaw completely unlocked (after 9 years). What surprised me was, how much I wanted a cigarette! And I don't smoke!

But it was a shock to feel some real sensation of relaxation going through that muscle tissue. It reminded me of how pleasurable it used be, to be out with friends having a beer or two, and ask for a cigarette from someone. I clearly understood why it is, occasionally, people feel they want and need to have a cigarette.

But hey! What can I say? At this point in my life???!! I am just happy to be able to move - and do it without any real pain.

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God,
surely You can guide us
to better resources
to help us resolve
our pleasure and pain issues!
Help us
to master our lives
in such a way that we
are not slaves
to the things that bind us.
In Your name,
Jesus, I ask.
Amen


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